Because I am an introvert—a shy introvert—I am sometimes tempted to study the Word for all the wrong reasons. You might be shocked to know that a shy introvert could take the sacred Word of God, build a monument to self with it, and dream of the “wow” moment of its unveiling.
But that is what I do when I spend time in the Word looking for “right” answers to “wow” others without that Word first being applied to my own heart in a way that affects change in my life.
Don’t get me wrong; this problem is not exclusive to introverts. I just happen to be one, so I am qualified to talk about it from that perspective.
Being a shy introvert can lead me to face all kinds of temptations to speak “wow”: an unhealthy longing for people to realize that, just because I am quiet, I am not a spiritual moron; a desire to promote self in spite of the fact that God has promised to do that for me—when the time is right—if I will just humble myself; a propensity to envy others who are able to aptly articulate aloud what they know about who God is.
When I open the Word, I remind myself that my time spent with Him is not about anything other than my intimately knowing Him: His love for me, His promises to me, His character, His correction, and His direction—our relationship; it’s not to build up an erudite bank of knowledge about Him to use to win the respect and acceptance of others and draw attention to myself.
Everything becomes all about Him—His glory—and who I am quietly becoming in light of the revelation of the Great I Am.
As I know Him more, I love Him more; as I love Him more, I cannot help but speak (at just the right time) the testimony of Who I know Him to be… without any thought of “self.”
And that is a genuine “wow” moment!
Knowledge puffs up, but love edifies.
—1 Corinthians 8:1